When I think back to being a kid it was really easy to sit around and do nothing; not a care in the world, in fact I’d never even heard the word “stress”. I can remember days, back when I was at college, when I would spend a free afternoon down at the local country park just chilling out, staring off across the lake. Then back to when I was a young kid and I would lie out on the grass with friend just starting off at clouds taking the shit that kids do.

Now, it seems, that I am completely incapable of doing this. When I sit down to do nothing my mind will race with a thousand thoughts of things that I haven’t done or things I should be doing rather than sitting around. I often wonder what brought me to this stage, a stage where I can’t even just relax and watch the clouds float by without thinking of all the things I should be doing. Continue reading →