Category: Personal

June 5, 2016 / / life

When I think back to being a kid it was really easy to sit around and do nothing; not a care in the world, in fact I’d never even heard the word “stress”. I can remember days, back when I was at college, when I would spend a free afternoon down at the local country park just chilling out, staring off across the lake. Then back to when I was a young kid and I would lie out on the grass with friend just starting off at clouds taking the shit that kids do.

Now, it seems, that I am completely incapable of doing this. When I sit down to do nothing my mind will race with a thousand thoughts of things that I haven’t done or things I should be doing rather than sitting around. I often wonder what brought me to this stage, a stage where I can’t even just relax and watch the clouds float by without thinking of all the things I should be doing. Read the Post The beauty of doing nothing

March 7, 2016 / / Personal

It’s just over a year since I opened up to the world (well those that are interested) that I suffer from depression. Opening up to the greater audience was daunting but something that I needed to do. The worry was that mental illness has a great deal of “taboo” about it and, while people were starting to open up about it there was a great deal still unspoken.

It got me thinking that humans are extremely emotional creatures with our daily lives being driven by a plethora of emotions; love, anger, boredom, drained, euphoric, happy, sad etc. That being said, the amount of “emotional energy” we have is not so abundant.

Read the Post The emotion bank

August 28, 2015 / / life

“Some days you’re the pigeon and some days you’re the statue”

This week has been a challenge, there are more defined (blunt) ways of putting it but that wouldn’t be in keeping with a positive attitude; it has been a challenge.

There’s a lot of things happening personally at the minute and a lot happening in the business that is taking a lot of headspace to process, probably much more than it should be allowed. For those people considered to be “normal” this takes it’s tole as you neglect to deal with those day to day things but the short term nature of it means that you can move things around in your head to allow the time to process it all….short term pain long term gain, as they say. But what happens when you don’t have the headspace to spare in the first place? Read the Post Some days….

June 12, 2015 / / life
March 16, 2015 / / Personal

There’s a old saying that says “it’s a small world” and it really is. The saying relates in reality to the 7 degrees of separation theory which states that you are only ever 7 connections from anyone on the planet. For example, if I wanted to speak to Bill Gates then there are only seven connections (people) that I would need to make in order to get to speak with him. Read the Post Little big planet

March 11, 2015 / / Light relief
March 10, 2015 / / Personal

It’s been a week now since I opened up and bared my soul to the world. It’s one week later and nothing has changed for me. The ground didn’t open up and swallow me whole nor have I been sent to Coventry. What I have found is sympathy from those who have suffered from the same debilitating illness and empathy from those who have not suffered but have some understanding of what it can do. People have reached out to me either via Facebook or more directly to show support and understanding, much more than I thought. Read the Post Aftermath

March 3, 2015 / / life

“Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.” – Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

Feels a little like the cliché alcoholics anonymous meeting, “My names Rob and I’m an alcoholic”. Obviously I’m not an alcoholic but the subject of mental illness feels equally taboo even in the modern age. In recent months the topic has become more prominent following the tragic passing of Robin Williams which was believed to have been brought about by an ongoing battle with depression.

Read the Post My names Rob and I’m mental

February 15, 2015 / / Personal
July 3, 2012 / / Light relief